naucify - to despise; to hold in low esteem

Day 1. It's 4pm.

exercitation - putting into practice; exercise

Try to fit that one in your day.

Anywho.

I'm alive.

And you are too, so cheers.



https://redd.it/ctdduu

this scares me. 8/21/19 update piggyback

Existentialism - doctrine of individual human responsibility in an unfathomable universe

LETS GET IT KIDDOS.

Getting better day by day. Lets break some records.

12:16pm add on, feeling quite alone. In a simple kind of way...I don't want to fight it, and I don't want to fight through it...My will is being tested, while I don't understand why this part of me has to more callused, I may not need to, everyone is doing it for (to) me. Am I doomed??? Sure feels like it.

'Yellowback' - cheap sensational novel

"Doublespeak" William D. Lutz is the first book that comes to mind.

I swear this digital self I'm discovering is getting more and more tuned to my actual self, and it's a weird and offputting thing. Nothing wrong with it per se, but it's unsettling to have such reassurance where there used to be aggressive disorienting stimuli. 

Keep the wagon train a-movin'.

irremissible - that cannot be forgiven; unpardonable

Within these last few months I've gotten better, much better;..beyond thankful to those who stuck through it with me, something has changed in my head and I'm ready for whats next, stress or not - I'm ready for ya baby!

Just keep on chuggin' mang. 

Rough One

Life is hitting me pretty hard, it's not the worst situation in the world, but it's enough to make me falter. Mistakes highlight where we need to grow, so I'm thankful in the end, but this is so damn sad...

Stress

Has been lifted from me in one form, and takes another shortly thereafter.

Not complaining, just wondering if it's me or the way things are.

After everything that's happened so far, I'm thankful for it all, still no closer to my meaning.

Only left with a place to go, wish I'd never set out on this type of journey.

"This is getting old"

Words I've heard too many times from my John...

Just let me be, simple.

8/5/2019 update 4:26pm 

this song is rad



*cough cough