everything is fine, I'm safe or okay here... because I've been doing all the work to help me develop as a person. 
NO ONE ELSE HAS EVER BEEN THERE FOR ME IN THIS WAY.
This sorry for myself thinking is particularly dangerous...the cycle that tells you to stay put is the same one that solves all your problems, makes you question the nature of life itself, and is addicting as well.We are ALL capable of great things, even on our WORST days. Without being optimistic in the face of negativity, I really feel like we have the power to break out of whatever funk we're stuck in.
Anger is really starting to feel like something i need/want to get over.
Finding a place where I can learn to be alone & still productive & flourishing has been the goal for a while now, but I get torn & end up shutting down.
https://youtube.com/shorts/cjgZgWY7aXs?si=Mc5-oYudRaPd136v - infected corn
1/13/2024, 11:45AM
was about to go to horsemens center, but chickened out.
My therapy session went pretty well, although I was scattered a a bit...
I realize how much of a jerk I am, and while ideally I'd like to change, i also want to find people who can guide me through that process.
The website for SS says it take 215 days to make a choice if I'm accepted or not...
WTF am i going to do in the meantime...
1/16/2024 4:48 AM
I've been watching a lot of philosophy, D330N baseline thoughts and instincts kind of vibe lately.
1/16/2024 im sad because i relate to these sad hoes - where do i get off?
Back after a long day of frying! WHOLEY CRAP ! ! !
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qOEx-i3lwFY
It’s kind of a bummer feeling the way that I do.
I’m aimless, wanting growth, putting in some effort, but I’m still falling short.
https://youtube.com/shorts/KfnnSiy6NGs?si=1G3wZodwri5mMv5L
https://youtube.com/shorts/NZQ7XHlt4Fc?si=zTD2knkIh274TcmN
having a GPS time trying to calm down
https://www.facebook.com/reel/378413774886054?fs=e&mibextid=0NULKw&fs=e&s=TIeQ9V
Don’t give up on yourself!
Just because you don’t know what you’re doing does not mean you don’t have a reason for doing the things you do.
I'm pretty tired of this back and forth with Ronnie, I need to move on.
HOW WILL I GET OUT!??!?!?
On top of this shit-everywhere-no-send-help-mood.v1b3
Being alone is okay, it's how we're born and it's how we'll die.
OH YEAH,
I was saying that the job offer that I had with Agiliti,
the camera re.