Might this be the first useful set of to-dos...it sure fells like it.
Start checking out new cities & make a path one month at a time.
Get a car & do my best (without wasting time) to move forward.
Get everything together legally that needs to be taken care of.
As this is being written, it is currently. 5:41AM - in the garage at this particular moment.
Make an online basis of transparent goal making/keeping & checking up with the world at large.
This means STARTING a more continuous & honest series of meetings & therapy sessions.
dreams, friends, memories nor nostalgia - and this is more than okay.
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Having 2 channels, livestream prefferably just 1 service, a discord, a group funded / kickstarter
& ideally, start something like Grey said he did, custom EVERYTHING ! ...website...thing.........lol.
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i am just not starting to realize that there is no need for a plan
not every thing has a reason or a rhythm about it
sometimes trying just happen
no matter how close to the heart they are
or how much they matter
which is more than okay
i dont want to tell...
but i have to
its the only away i can move forward and be honest with the both of us
do what you have to do joseph
otherwise you will be stuck until your dying days
I put everything written above into a chatGPT, and this is what it spit out
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It sounds like you are going through a period of reflection and decision-making.
It's important to prioritize your own well-being and honesty in your relationships.
Remember that it's okay to let go of things that no longer serve you and to embrace the unknown.
Moving forward with honesty and self-awareness will ultimately lead to personal growth and fulfillment.
Take the time you need to make the decisions that are best for you, and trust in your ability to navigate through this phase of your life.
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Now it is 3:18pm, i bought a UE peakers off mike for 10 bux, sold everything else & got the ol' krause doujble take-cold-shoulder-combo...that you'd think i'd been a little more keen on by now...guess thats what i get...?lol
shot my first vids & Editing the entry to my critique of the justice system today.
I'm actually quiet excited about this, but im also quiet tired, overstimulated & missing a bit of connection from people that I could really use right about now...oh well, whatever does not kill you makes you stronger, I guess???
I feel the natural repel i normally get when i have an idea i need to act on, but wont/cant/dont for one reason or another...this time i keep blaming it on the timing I suppose.
10/15/2024 - 8:25PM - Tess, new ways and more.
Realizing how hard it'll be alone has not lost any of it's weight on me, and I realize more needs to be done before I can leave... friends, money, place to stay, way to make money on LOCK, and have a bit saved as well of course. Being clean is easy enough & feels way better when there are actually a REASON for it all...and trust me, those have been piling up like none other.
Here is a "part one" of my observations on the mental health diversion program that is a part of California and it's legal system.
Poison wont kill you
nor the weight of the world
i couldn't tell you
happy birthday any better
Smile, nobody's watching.
if you don't now
then you wont know
just how much it
how much it rules
to still be here
Sharing this planet with you
sorry all i have
is this shitty song...
but it's all i got
so dont hate me please
ill be there to help
should you want.
Blog posts don't mean anything...so why am i putting so much time, effort and thought into something that is LESS than a waste of time...*I think
custom4u
good boy fabrication
gear reworking equipment inc
made4you gears
fit fattle jam jabble revise
tune reuse rework
accommodate reworks
redesign gear & total correction
revamped fine-tuned inc
re-engineer with refocus and reclaimed
love me if you want to
not bcuz we're all dead
in the end
my bones will cry
never to be found
just like you
am i man of mud, or steel, or something else
so tell me this, what are you chasing - little miss
lets forget about pain, going under - a little game
lets understand each other, & die trying.
we're all toast
didn't ya didn't notice?
love you, more than...
more than...ever than...
the freedom of the sea, the power of nature or
that flower when i met you
what on the other side baby?
so i'll ask for you...what do you think is next?
it's burning a whole inside...me and
i can't help but notice the noviceness in it all
when were alone, do we ever stand tall?
I'm good for another one,
lets do our best this time because brother...
your slipping and slipping away
slowly...just like me.
how did i end up here?
peering with bad eyes
8703 45 rd
every step i took
sorry for not realizing sooner.
kind of a doomer
looking for your tooter
dont know where i am
im thinking about what i want my lifer to be...for real.
i don't mean any of these situtions
living situation, job, what is the part of life i want most....
my mind currently is telling me do whatever you have to score some...