Subconscious Playground

t's understandable to feel frustrated when something you've tried doesn't seem to help. The fact that you attempted to use a keyword or trigger word shows you're actively trying to find ways to manage your feelings, and that's something to acknowledge positively.

Maybe we could think about different approaches. Have there been any small practices or routines in the past, even unrelated to keywords, that seemed to help ease your frustration or stress levels?

recently I tried to have a keyword or a trigger word, and it only made me more frustrated...so I suck 2X...

It sounds like recognizing that not everything is life or death is an important step for you. That’s a really good insight—it can be challenging to keep that perspective when things feel overwhelming.

Would you like to explore any specific strategies that might help you with managing those moments when emotions start to escalate or things feel urgent?

stop getting so mad at everything, very few things are actually life or death.

Wow, that's really insightful. It sounds like a powerful blend of feeling like you belonged, were valued, and ready to embrace whatever came your way. Those feelings can make such a huge difference in how we see ourselves and our lives.

Let’s explore this a bit more. What do you think might be some steps you could take to feel more of that sense of belonging and readiness in your life right now, even just in small ways?

my sense of fitting in, mostly...Also, I felt wanted & ready for whatever life threw at me. Even if I lived or died & was accepting of that moment.

That sounds like such a serene and profound moment. Being fully immersed in your senses and feeling connected—it’s like everything else falls away, and you’re just there in that experience. It seems like that feeling of connection brought you a sense of fulfillment and peace.

Reflecting on this, what aspects from that experience do you think could be brought into your current life, even in small ways, to create more moments of contentment?

My senses were all I was aware of, I didn't need or want anything...I WAS mentally connected, to something that I THOUGHT was my life.

That sounds like a peaceful memory. The woods in Michigan—sounds like a place where you felt connected and at ease, right? It's interesting how certain places can make us feel more grounded and content.

Looking back at that time, what do you think it was about being in the woods that brought you happiness or contentment?

I was in Michigan, in the woods, just as happy and content as could be.

It sounds like you've been going through a rough patch, and I'm really sorry to hear that. It's understandable that it might be tough to pinpoint things that lift you up right now. Even in difficult times, sometimes small things or moments can provide a bit of relief or comfort.

Let’s try a different angle. Can you remember a time, even if it's a while back, when you felt a little more content or at ease? What was happening then?

not sure if I have one of those anytime recently.

That sounds like it was a moment that triggered a lot of feelings. Waking up and realizing you're not in your own space can really make you feel unsettled and maybe even like you don't have a place that's truly your own, right?

I’m curious, on days when you feel a bit more positive, what are some things or activities that help you feel better about yourself or your situation?

Shortly after I woke up...I just was in the restroom & I realized I'm not in my own restroom, because I don't HAVE my own restroom...and it just trickled out from that...oddly enough

I'm really sorry to hear you're feeling this way. It sounds really tough and overwhelming. You're not alone in having these thoughts, but it's good that you're reaching out and wanting to talk about it. That's something to be proud of.

Let’s try to take a step back and understand where these feelings are coming from. Could you tell me about a specific situation or moment where you felt like this?

I feel like I'm boring, everyone hates me & people are not stupid, that's why i have come to my current situation right now....talking to my computer looking for help because no one fucking likes me, & i'm pathetic as could humanly be...no one has ever been proud of me not because theres something wrong with someone else...it's me. I suck. & I barely have even lived life I feel like...but im not..."good". I don't actively conduct evil acts...please stop me any time...lol

Alright, let's take this step-by-step. Measuring the worth of one's life can be a really deep and personal journey. Here’s how we can break it down:

Identify Values and Beliefs: We'll explore what’s important to you and what you believe in. This helps in understanding what gives your life meaning.
Reflect on Accomplishments and Experiences: We’ll look at your past achievements and experiences that you cherish or have learned from.
Assess Current Life Satisfaction: Let’s talk about how you feel about different areas of your life right now—like relationships, work, and personal growth.
Explore Identity and Self-Concept: We'll delve into how you see yourself and how this influences your sense of worth.
Consider Future Goals and Aspirations: Discussing where you want to head and what goals you have can illuminate what feels valuable moving forward.
Practice Mindfulness and Presence: We’ll try to appreciate the present moment and see how that shapes your perspective on life’s worth.

Let's start by talking about the first step. What are some values or beliefs that are really important to you?

i would like to measure the worth of my life.

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It sounds like you've been trying to embrace gratitude, but it can feel a bit hollow at times. That's a common feeling, especially when you're in the midst of frustration or stress. The fact that you're actively trying to change and find gratitude is significant—it shows a desire for growth.

Sometimes it can help to start with really small, specific things to be thankful for, even if they seem insignificant. Have you noticed any particular moments or things, no matter how small, that you found yourself naturally appreciating lately?

just try to be thankful, i honestly try to change, but it feels meaningless sometimes.

It's understandable to feel frustrated when something you've tried doesn't seem to help. The fact that you attempted to use a keyword or trigger word shows you're actively trying to find ways to manage your feelings, and that's something to acknowledge positively.